Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Last Day of the Year

Wow, it's been a while. Good thing nothing has happened! Christmas was good. I cried a lot but what else is new right??? We had a good time this year. I needed that.

I started on 10 U Lupron this morning. I had my E2 test yesterday but I haven't heard the results yet. Hopefully I'll be able to start Bravelle this weekend and get this show on the road.

I am really enjoying acu. Too bad it is so expensive. I'd like to keep it up but we won't be able to afford that. It's a lot of money!

New Years Eve. Not much going on. We're going to go out to eat with my brother and SIL and then play games an such. Not the same when you cannot drink!

Update: My RE's office just called and my E2 is 24!! They wanted it below 80 to start stimming. I am so excited!

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Still Waiting

These past couple of days are just dragging. Two more weeks until I start Luron injections again. I can't wait. I am getting nervous reading all the posts on thebump. So many are on their 3rd and 4th IVF cycle and we could barely afford this one. If this doesn't work I don't know what I'll do. I love reading all the posts but it also scares me that I'll be one of the BFNs. I must stay positive! I love acupuncture. Hopefully my kidney, spleen and stomach are getting happier so they make my uterus happy to. I keep praying that I get a BFP. I guess that's all I can do, right?!?

Thursday, December 11, 2008

The Waiting Game

I had my first acu appointment on the 9th. I was really nervous but it didn't hurt at all. She walked me through everything. When I was done though I was so dizzy -- not sure if it was becuase I was so warm or if I was too relaxed. I really liked her she is Chinese and grew up having acu done on her so she is very familiar with it. She said she's done many women who are fertility-challenged.

Other than that I am just waiting. Waiting for Christmas, waiting for New Years and then waiting to start my stims on January 3rd.

On a positive note I have most of my Christmas shopping done so that is one thing I don't have to dwell on -- which is good becuase I am totally a dweller!

Monday, December 8, 2008

Lupron Depot Hell

I am a crying mess. I looked up Lupron Depot's side effects and a bawling freak isn't one of them but looks like that is what I've become. I started crying at church yesterday becuase we sang Happy Birthday to the Sister who run our church. Not much of a ballad I think. I also spontaneously started weeping in Kohl's this weekend when a women with three screaming crying boys came in the store. I need help. Or alcohol. Neither of which I can get anytime soon.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Here We Go Again

I got my Lupron Depot shot last night. Dr. Steve came over late last night to administer it. Wow it was scary looking! Anyway, didn't hurt, just took him a long tim to inject the serum (or whatever you call it). Anyway as of right now no side effects! Yea! So now in 28 days I will start the 10 unit Lupron SC injections again. If I remain supressed Janaury 3rd starts stims. Again, Yea!

After reading all of the posts on I decided to look into acupuncture. My mom and husband cautioned me to check with my RE so like a good little patient I did. The RE nurse was actually really excited I was interested in it. She said women love it and may think it helped. So, I have scheduled my first appointment for Tuesday, December 9th. Last night at our office Christmas party I spoke to one of my bosses wives about it as I recently learned that she went for shoulder pain. She waid it was wonderful, that she was so relaxed that she started having "visions" whatever that means! I am so excited to start. I am trying anything to keep me posisitve about my upcoming cycle. Since it is unlikley we can afford a second cycle this will be our one and only hope. Plus it gives me something else to focus on which is really good. I have started knitting again and am trying to do Wii Fit regularly but my brain goes right back to INFERTILITY.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Trying to Stay Positive

I am supposed to get my Lupron Depot tomorrow. I am trying to stay positive. I just can't help thinking that this is not going to work. There have been so many disappointments before and it is hard to fathom something good happening.

Monday, December 1, 2008

Waiting. . .

I got my new IVF calendar. First I have a Lupron Depot 3.75 IM shot on December 3rd. Then I don't start the daily Lupron SC shots again until December 30th. Assuming I am finally freaking suppressed I will start Bravelle then on January 10th. Because I didn't respond well now my RE wants all of my stimming shots to be IM. Looks like Andy will have to step up to the plate since I have to do it twice a day and there's no way I'll be able to do it by myself. Oh well. The RE's office assured me that this doesn't affect how well the drugs stimulate becuase I kind of panicked after reading information on the Bravelle website. I am getting so anxious and trying to stay positive but I keep reading on my favorite websites about woment on their 4th and 5th IVF cycle. Wow, how can people afford it??? Being OOP I am scared this time wont take and then we have to be done becuase we'll never be able to cough up another $15,000.